Some midnight thoughts

Since I have discovered not who i am, but who I want to be, I have done nothing but break the rules. The social rules, I mean.

I have never felt that I am truly part of this world. I was living my life through other peoples' lives. And not even other people, but potential "me-s"... Miruna if... That was me... So at one moment I sat and I centralized all these "Miruna ifs" into one single "Miruna if", a potential Miruna if you want. And now I'm heading towards her, towards Me. Some parts of the new me are completed...some others are not up to me 100%. But still I'm doing something for myself.

I like to see how others perceive me. In my last field trip I was fortunate enough to live with a girl who liked to analyze people and she was open enough to discuss her observations. I've learned many things about myself because of her, but I've also got a quick look on how others see me. Actually, my best luck with her is that she isn't polite. Don't get me wrong, she's not impolite. Just that she usually speaks whatever is on her mind (or at least this is the impression she leaves to most people).