I recently discovered that I have lost the ability to listen to my downers. Tonight I tried to get myself back into that mood (damn it, I miss ionut). Can't say that they did their job, but they helped me remember a couple of things. I will post a couple of them, explaining when, why and how they made it to my list. Isn't this a sort of catharsis?

Here's to the downer no.1 >> Archive - Controlling Crowds.




From the album with the same name, Controlling Crowds is a song that obsessed me for a couple of weeks in a row. I could listen to nothing but this. I would smoke, go to bed and try to make sense of things. The song managed to name, then exorcise some of my deepest fears. Back then I had this amazing, amazing friend with whom the verse "in your arms, cause i'm scared of their controlling crowds" was perfect. Because in his arms it was only natural to "refuse to follow".