Fortunate poor people II

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
- J.R.R. Tolkien - The Fellowship of the Ring

Fortunate poor people

There are some people in this world for whom things can't come just like that. Some people in this world have it rough in their lives, find many obstacles in their path - but I don't think this is necessarily a bad thing. On the contrary - these difficulties bring out what is best, what is kind, what is beautiful inside them. 

Sometimes it gets difficult - no matter how wise one is, still it's rough to see around you people who have it easy and yet you have to struggle so much for every little achievement in your life. But this is how one learns to truly appreciate the valuable things in life - people are there for you when you are doing good - but those who stick around when you are doing not so good - those are the truly valuable people one should have around. So the first and most important thing is that you get to have valuable people around you. Second, one learns to appreciate the really valuable things in life - a shelter, food, clothes, even if you don't have the most expensive brands. Then very important - one learns to appreciate the beauty in others - the shell is ephemeral, the outer beauty fades away. But a beautiful soul and a beautiful mind remain forever.

I don't think such people are cursed or punished for something. I think such people are actually blessed - they gain a certain knowledge about the world which is not accessible to most people. They become wise. And God never lets such people down - if we look superficially they may have it hard on them; but on a closer look, the knowledge they gain from such a destiny is actually the most precious treasure one can have in life. 

For you...

Most of my adult life I have asked God one thing -  why and when is it going to stop? Then I understood something - everything happens for a reason. God wanted me to go through all my experiences so that I can learn. So that I can become a better person. OK, but why? I have asked as well so many times. Why is it worth trying to be a good, kind human being if I'm only going to get my ass kicked again and again? Then I learned one more thing - to pay attention to the course of events. Nothing was actually random - after one lesson came another lesson and another.
First I learned how to let go of my ego. Then I learned how to give freedom. Then I learned how to love without being selfish.
You know why? To be where I am right now. To have you in my life and show you in one thousands ways just how precious and incredibly amazing you are. How wonderful you are. So that I can see your beauty.
I am never alone, for I can sense your presence every moment. It is like you are permanently connected to me. And also you are not alone anymore, for I am there with and for you no matter what. 

This one goes out to the one I love

The last two days were a hell before leaving. I wasn't sure about anything and I only felt that I still needed some more time. Time to make you understand. But that hell ended the moment I heard you saying "You love me, I love you". From that moment I have stopped crying and peace of mind came instead.
What more can I ask God for now? You gave me your love - and my life is complete. I would be greedy if wanting anything else. You are part of me now and I can't think of my life otherwise. Part of my being, part of my soul. It feels that I'm settled now. There is nothing more I desire. All material things look so futile right now. I have risen in love and for this I have you to thank.
I drove around today and it was like you were there with me. I could only think about when you will be here with me, planning to show you the  life I'm willing to leave behind.
Everything I wanted from someone is there, with you. I can only love you. And the love I feel for you makes me feel like a better human being - because I love the most beautiful man on the face of the Earth.